This is a repost of a blog written in July 2020

I often say to my Pastor (well anyone who is in the Church that wants to listen really 🙂 )  ‘Give me a checklist”, “I just need to be told what I am and am not allowed to do”. 

 

I feel so ‘dumb’ sometimes.  I can never remember feeling like this as a child going to Church. Perhaps it’s because I am older now, or it interests me more.  I’m not sure really, but I really really really want to understand the bible totally and try my hardest to live for God.

I have a lot of strong opinions on a lot of things and if I am going to need to change them, then I need to work through why/how etc to get me to the changing point. I can’t do that if I don’t understand or even know what I’m meant to be doing.

 

I also stress about not being able to help people with their own journey towards God if I don’t fully understand.  I sit with people and talk about all types of things, but each time the Bible and/or God comes up I stop having input.  I judge myself, doubt my knowledge and therefore stop contributing to the conversation.

 

I love God so much, and I know my passion would fascinate so many people, but most of them won’t see it, as I won’t share my thoughts for fear of saying something wrong or advising someone incorrectly.

 

I can’t have a discussion with you about anything to do with God and the Bible and I really want to be able to do that.. So many people have so many ideas/beliefs/questions about God and the Bible and I need to be able to have open discussions with them.  I want to be able to help them love God the way I do.

 

So wish me luck… 🙂

 

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p.s only a quick blog today to set up for the coming ones 🙂